I can tell (many of) you speak from experience and from a mixture of emotions (from fondness to bitterness, as most of us with some life behind us do). I can also tell you probably come from a working background, and it is among that working class that you (we) will find a few who try their darndest to NOT contemplate*; contemplate, not for tomorrow's sake, but because of what could have happened yesterday. Non-contemplators despise contemplators, because of bitterness over the (perceived) past. Then, among "them" sits us -people like you and me- who revel in reality, good or bad, right or wrong- reality is were some of us have no choice but to live and exist. Contemplators, like you and me, are unable to experience apathy; we are unable to give ourselves that luxury.
HOWEVER, as a body politic we (the people) are in the late stages of a political wagon wheel that has played out in many past democracies: They have always progressed through a sequence that includes politico "apathy." That sequence goes from bondage to spiritual faith; to great courage; to liberty; to abundance; to complacency; to apathy; and dependence, then back into bondage"
We collectively are hitting the Dependency Stage now (coming on since Wilson), and the reality you and I eat for breakfast is about to give us indigestion.
But take heart, folks at about my age (55) just may live long enough to actually see this cycle once again hit the edges of liberty. That part of the cycle is likely to come on relatively quickly because of stubborn libertarians like you, and me.
*Two kind of 45+“contemplators:” 1) those who think about what life should have been; and 2) those who think over the past in order to master the future. The first group is bitter over not getting what they dreamed of in their younger life, and the second group is planning the demise of their competitors. Group one is sitting back and slowing down in their life due to frustration and/or circumstances such as less-than successful children and poor planning for old age. Group Two has either no children or reasonably successful adult kids, and they are looking for ways to express their new-found freedom from previous liabilities. The so-called middle class has Group One in its center with a few from Group Two. The upper middle class has Group Two within its center, with a few being from Group One.