Abortion Disrupts Lofty Goals

I try my best to look at issues through the lens of a political scientist, and often I find myself wrestling back and forth between a pure intellectual approach and my obvious bias for moralism. Don't get me wrong -- I am far from perfect. In fact, it is that "fire" in which I came that makes me --forces me-- to filter my thoughts and actions. I've been to the other side, down and desperate and self-indulged with what seemed like the weight of the world rolling against me, I did not like what it brought out of me and I did not like the prospects. I needed a goal, a lofty goal to inspire my own footprints through life.
Intellectualism at its best also brings it to us at its worst; personified through the actions of a psychopath. However, one of the things that brought me out of the gutter was something I "discovered" inside me- I wanted life to mean something. Then, in my search for the meaning of life (a lofty goal), I began working on the best intellectual course to bring me to that goal. Can I obtain meaning by applying varying requirements on different characteristics?
No- I have to be consistent. I must find the "rules" and apply them equally, to myself and to others- even to those whom I find disgusting, or simply unlikeable. Secondly, those rules have to be compatible with societal order, meaning it is disingenuous to apply certain rules to my actions, but change those rules for others. Thirdly, for life to mean something it (across the board) has to be worth something. Can I put a price on it? Can I affect its value? Can any of us affect its value? Who am I to ascribe such a worth? And lastly, I realistically have to conclude that coming to finality in life with such a lofty goal met, is not likely- the ultimate meaning of life is at its best, fleeting.
All of this means the preponderance of life will not be spent at or within the goal, but on the road to that goal. Thus, am I to be judged by my lofty, well intended goal, or am I to be judged on how I act on the road to that goal? People come and go in and out of our lives throughout living life; by what gage might these chance encountered people judge me? They will judge me by what they see --what they perceive-- relative to my daily actions. So I ask again, what is more important: the goal, or how I act in my attempt at getting to that goal?
Does not age and experience give us some duty to be a model for those younger? Ah, for me, no matter what my destination is, the mores I apply daily are by far the most important. And this is why I cannot be a liberal- I allow rules to sometimes be an obstacle. But in the end, I shall have no regrets, for most of whom I meet throughout my life knows I tried to do the right thing for all of those whose path I crossed. Love me or hate me, at least there will be a little bit of admiration in there somewhere. What more can anyone ask for. And, interestingly enough, that sounds like a pretty lofty goal, too.
In conclusion, can I fit abortion somewhere within that model; for me to live yet for another to die? Intellectually, that seems a bit hypocritical, don’t you think? If life is to have meaning, it must have worth, and no one is important enough to decide who lives and who dies. Not even I, for erring on the side of death cannot be corrected; an error we can all live with.
In the words of our founders, “Nature and Nature’s God” can be the only Arbiter.